Day One: A New Beginning
Well, here we are. 240 pounds of blubber - I've lost 20 pounds since January (it's now July), but I've put 10 pounds back on in the last month. I'm going to try really hard to be real, and honest with this blog. I'm fantastic at lying to myself and telling myself "I'm fine!" until I believe it, but I'm not fine. I hate my body. I hate being trapped in this giant bag of flesh that I can't escape. I hate that I can't walk down to the end of my very short driveway or go up the stairs in my house with out gasping for breath. I hate that I am incredibly petty and I hate that my sister is skinner than me - I hate being jealous about something so incredibly stupid! But, I'm trying to be honest here, and that is the real, raw truth. It took my sister doing something about her weight (which was always healthy in my opinion but I'm not her doctor) and really being happy and comfortable in her skin to make me take a really hard look at my s...